Addiction

(a slam poetry piece 2022)

Drama for mama

Distractions and factions

Interactions with the principle tactics

Didactics and dogma

Who’s hoggin’ ma

Popcorn

My heart’s torn

By mental illness

No stillness

Is found

Round and round we go

Can’t take no

More of this rat race

Got a fat case

Of cryin’

While tryin’

To figure

This gig you’re

My best friend

Why this end?

Grab hold of my hand

You can make it!

Why fake it

To save face

And stay in the same place

Addicted

Afflicted?

Just step out admittedly,

Denial is stupidity.

Rigidity’s a killer,

But what words can will her

To see such a sad truth

Her blindness the noose

‘Round her neck.

All on deck!

Your friends scramble

Preamble to disaster

Don’t lose her! Go faster!

A crate beneath your feet

You meet with a kick.

You don’t want to be saved.

Deep inside you’ve caved

To self sabotage

Camouflaged

By laughter and tears

While the weight of the years

Without help as you self-medicate

your self-hate

Unfounded

Compounded

Compressed ‘neath the volcanic rock

That you’ve formed with eruptions.

That lava flows hot with presumptions

That you are unlovable.

It cries to the sea.

Flaming tears fall to steam,

And the mountain grows,

Packing down the burn to turn

To stone,

As you alone

Form the mountain that we all face.